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Thankful Thursday (Water)

Today I'm thankful for water! We are on a water ban where I live because we have had no rain for so long and all our water reserves are way below where they should be. Even the retention ponds in my area are almost bone dry... all the ducks and geese just stand around in the puddles left behind.

No one in the area is allowed to have any sprinklers turned on or even wash their cars. You can water flowers and vegetable gardens, but you have to actually be holding your watering hose. It just seems crazy to me that we are in such a drought right now. The news even said it would take 8 inches of rain for us to move out of our extreme drought we are in. UHHHHGGGG!

I read in Bark Magazine recently that people should be putting bowls of water outside for the animals because they are so thirsty. Squirrels and birds have been on the look out for little bowls to get a drink from or take a bath in.

It's funny how much you take water for granted and how important it is to every living creature! What I wouldn't give for 3 straight days of rain, but I am thankful for the clean refreshing water I do have!

Mileage Monday

Running stats for the week of July 9th - July 15th... I think I got a little more realistic this past week. I finally admitted to myself that I'm probably not gonna run this half marathon in the Fall. Sad I know. This is two years straight that this goal has passed me by. Because I have been so lazy the past three weeks or so with my running, I'm pretty much starting over endurance wise. I know I'll be able to build up more quickly than normal, but still... I can't see myself being in shape enough to run a half marathon straight through and that was my goal. I'm frustrated with myself that I'm starting over. It isn't like I didn't know what would happen when I took such a long break from running. My plan is to slowly start doing some running this upcoming week. Nothing spectacular, but something at least. Who knows, I may surprise myself and still do the half marathon this year... I mean stranger things could happen right?

Mainly, I have no goal right now besides just running. It doesn't matter how often, fast, or long I go... it just matters that I run. I like this thought right now because it really frees me from the guilt and pressure I feel when I don't get my "scheduled" runs in. Now it's more about having fun and staying healthy. And... if I do feel like I'm able to do a half in October or November then I'll sign up last minute and do it!

Big sigh of relief!

Photo a Day - Week #26

Week of July 9th - July 15th

Monday

(the new prescription I get to take for the rest of my life... oh joy)

Tuesday

(a white goose... this clan left massive amount of poo in our yard... GRRRR!)

Wednesday

(new contacts... finally)

Thursday

(our new copy/fax/scanner machine at work)

Friday

(sleeping beauty)

Saturday

(good morning world)

Sunday

(play with me)

Thankful Thursday (Life in General)

Today I'm thankful for life in general. I feel like these past few weeks I have been feeling sorry for myself because things haven't gone as planned or just aren't perfect at times. I often throw in the towel way too early for some things.

Prime example: Lately, if I miss one of my scheduled runs for the week, I just tell myself that my whole week of training is ruined and then I don't run all week long.

Prime example: If I've gained weight... I'll just eat anything I want to because whats a few more pounds gonna matter.

I'm not usually like this. Usually if I would miss a run then I would just do it the next day, but not lately. Or, if I've gained weight, then I work hard to get the pounds off ASAP. I've been lazy in life recently, which is unacceptable for me.

So this week I'm trying to have a more positive outlook on things and not take for granted this wonderful life I've been given. When I get in a funk it's hard to not feel sorry for myself, but I have to remember that it doesn't make anything better :)

My motto this week!

"You still have time..."

I went to the doctor last week because I had to get a physical done for our new insurance! I've never had so many tests done for insurance purposes before! GEEZE! As the doctor was poking and prodding me we had a familiar conversation...

Doc: "So you're 27... and you have kids right?"

Me: "No."

Doc: "But you're trying to have kids right?"

Me: "No."

Doc: "But you want to have kids right?"

Me: "I dunno..."

Doc: "Well, I suppose you still have time to decide."

I left the doctor feeling strange... a little bit like a failure in fact. The doctor made me feel like I wasn't normal. Since that visit I have been going back and forth in my mind about kids... AGAIN. I have such mixed emotions on if I want to be a mother. There's part of me that feels like I'll have regrets if I don't... and a part of me that would be just fine with it being my husband, me, and my dog forever. I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I don't fit in anymore. All my childhood friends now have a kid or kids or are pregnant. It's hard to relate. And it's lonely at times.

Even though I feel like Dan and I have tons of time to make that decision... I feel like the world around me thinks much differently and that makes me feel insecure about where I am in life right now.